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Melt.

The cheese I bought isn't cheesing the way I thought it would. I still eat it, feeling disappointment with each bite. The extremely spicy noodles and the cheese that was supposed to wrap around them, giving me the relief I needed, don't quite hit the mark. A forkful of it all goes into my mouth, but nothing tastes as I wanted it to.

This is a craving that hasn't been satisfied. But I am full, and that's enough for tonight. I don't know what to wear tomorrow. Sadly, I have no clue how to wear a saree, and the rest of my traditional wear is in the wash. If I show up in my black jean jacket, I'm sure I'll be due for a public execution. I must learn someday. Traditional wear is convenient, and everyone is suddenly satisfied without constant questions about why I wear what I wear.

I'll watch a movie tonight. The fifth night is the direct translation of it. I wonder what it's going to be like. I try not to look at the description, but I saw a comment saying it's an amazing film. I hope it's true. I hope at least one thing satisfies me for now. Maybe then, I'll find it in me to wake up tomorrow.

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